got off my butt and joined 2 exposure sites. Xposure which i used to be a member of back when i had serial-kill.net and dispair.nu which is kind of a funny name for an exposure site…

spent most of the weekend goofing off with coy. friday we just sorta layed around and slept, saturday we went to darvin’s house, ate pizza, and played really old dreamcast games. sunday we played sims 2 and layed around more until he had to leave at 5 to go home i hate when he leaves. i don’t wanna let goooo…

*ahem* i joined a pretty nice writing portfolio site called lemonfingers.com. very awsome site. and within 5 minutes of posting my extreaming long unfinished epic, defying destiny, i have already gotten some comments of intrest on it much better than the other places i’ve posted it where people just said “wow cool” and that’s it. i started to post the chapters from my other story, “outcast” but for some reason my wordpad program won’t open the wordpad documents from windows 98se :mad: which is really bad because half of my work is saved in wordpad documents!!! it wants to open them in word, but i don’t have any free time left on word and i need a serial number for it :| *cough*ifanyonehasonepleaseemailittomeorsomething!*cough*

that’s about it for now.

i don’t have much to say, but i did promise jem sooooo….

i would really like it if you all would take the time to visit tutorialtastic! it is an awsome site that has a large ammount of tutorials on many subjects, including php, html, and modding bellabook. so if you’re in need of some tutorial type things, you should go to tutorialtastic!
goooooo!

anyway, now that i have done that coy’s comming down after school and i am going to snuggle him like mad. but for now, i need some sleep.

life’s been crummy lately so i’ve been emmersing myself in world of warcraft to dull the irritation.

those who don’t know, i live with my parents. my parents are very poor, and they live off of dad’s disability check, and foodstamps.

the past couple of months, their bank has been screwing them out of a large sum of the disability check, making it impossible to pay bills and what not. mom finally terminated the account with them so they won’t get next months check, but the damage has been done. the car broke down earlier this month and mom was forced to use alot of the money on it gettting fixed. that plus dad’s medical stuff and doctor visits for the month have left us broke. there’s zero food here right now except for a few pieces of bread and cheese. and that is not sufficent substance for a heartpatient who suffers from other medical problems as well. also our satillite tv has been canceled until march. sure, that’s an unneeded expence, but we dont’ get normal tv here. so without the dish, my dad has nothing to do all day except sleep and sit in his room.

mom has not been helping matters. instead of being around, and spending time with dad, she’s been running off to her friend’s house to help her organize her house and stuff. dad was very upset with her when she came home tonight and so was i. it isn’t fair that she gets to leave and dad gets stuck here. dad cannot drive, and unfortunately neither can i. not that it would have mattered, since we only have one working vehicle here. thankfully i have the internet in my room, but dad doesn’t have that luxury yet. we are still working on his computer, and he doesn’t want to use it on my computer, so he’s stuck there.

yes i know, i need to get a job again and help out on bills and stuff, but right now i can’t seem to find a job anywhere. i’ve applied all over the place for retail jobs and stuff like that, and i cannot find anything that is hiring. and the ones that are hiring haven’t bothered to call me back.

so yeah, it’s not been a good few days.

in world of warcraft news. darvin and i made alliance characters just for a change. (we both still prefer the horde side.) i made a human rogue, and he made a human paladin. we’ve been running around together killing stuff but last night our server went down (the bad side of playing a freeserver :mad: ) and we lost alot of our XP and items that we’d looted before the world save. not fun.

also my cat continues to cry and drive my parents crazy. and i have yet to find any answer or any help site telling me what the hell i should do. ugh.

*sigh* it’s been boring around here lately.

i made a message board! i’ve had several in the past and they never seemed to catch on. but i’m hoping this one will :| so if you want to join, feel free! Overloaded MB
horray for free hosting with php right?

my cat will not stop crying! ugh. he’s fine though…i’ve looked him over, top to bottom and i can’t figure out what’s going on with him. he just sits and cries for hours and it’s always really late at night when he does it. it’s pissing off my parents and i’m afraid i’ll have to get rid of him if i don’t figure it out so…if anyone can give me some advise, i would be very greatful. i love my baby and i don’t want to get rid of him. but i also don’t like listening to him scream his little heart out for no reason.

welp…i’m off to tweek the mb…

poo…

it snowed again! ugh. coy could not get out where he’s at so he called to tell me that he wouldn’t be comming down this weekend. which means i won’t see him again until next weekend *weep*

i miss my coy.

i don’t have much to say today, just that. going to drown my sorrows in half life 2 now…

oh my god i am in love!

i just finished watching saw 2, and for those of you who like horror and what not…this is DEFINITELY a movie for you.

first movie in a long time that actually made me want to fucking vomit! seriously. i was sitting there cringing though the whole thing. jigsaw reminds me of my dad if he suddenly snapped one day…*glee* fucking gorgeous movie…

i can’t even begin to convey how much i love this thing….

coy didn’t show up today :/ i’m guessing he was too tired from workstudy to come down. so i’ll see him tomorrow i guess.

it is freaking cold in here and mom won’t turn up the head! ugh. my hands hurt from how cold it is and her responce was to put clothes on…O_o i have clothes on! i have socks (which i never wear…i hate socks.), a long sleeve shirt, and long jogging pants on. what more clothing do i need to put on??? she’s stupid… :|

not much else to say. gonna watch house now and freeze my ass off.

ok, messed with a new guestbook script called bellabook probably will suck less than megabook did :P

not much to write about. i did absolutely nothing all day. i need to stop being lazy.

darvin is talking to me about a mcdonalds he went to a few days ago:

CyberOpticDragon: but OMG…the Mcdonalds…
CyberOpticDragon: it was like…eating sex

he and i are mcdonalds freaks. we try to find the best ones possible and rate all of the ones we eat at.

anyway. yeah. that is all that’s happening in my world. need to watch saw 2 before mom has to take it back tomorrow. so that’s probably what i’m gonna do. *nods*

…i’m back early because i got sick up at his mom’s house and i figured i should come home…i think it was the smoke :/ the sooner he stops smoking, the better. ugh. i spent most of valentines day curled up in a ball unable to breath and throat hurting. but coy was all cuddly and stuff…and so it was still an ok day after all.

the day before v-day i was not feeling so shitty so i made him dinner ^^ yes i can cook. but i prefer not to because i’m just impatient with food. i like it done NOW not in 20 minutes…

anyway, i made him noodles and crab meat, and some sort of cheese sauce that was in a jar in the fridge very good stuff. and he liked it so yay! this was our 4th v-day together and i think perhaps it was the best one. but oh god i was sick last night…i had an actual migrane and cried because it hurt. and he huggled me all night..*meeps*

i had him take me home after he came back from school and had a nap. we road down the mountain singing along to the radio. my head still hurts but i’m feeling better and i wish i could go back up there…bah, i’ll see him on friday or saturday, so no big deal.

in sitely news, i nixxed the guestbook. while i was gone i managed to get about 40 some spam messages on it…so i just said screw it and deleted it :|

in the about me section i added more junk about me. and i would like to direct your attention to my very lonely “ask me” section. no one has asked me anything

also added a little flickr thing over there on the side bar.

that’s about it. i’m off to get some food.

i’ll probably be gone for the next week coy’s on his way to pick me up. we’re going to spend valentine’s day together yay!

so i’ll be with out the internet for a full week. don’t do anything crazy while i’m gone :P

oh man i suck. been skipping out on blogging to play world of warcraft. bad nimil…bad.

i’ve been playing on a free server the last couple of days. much fun. except that there’s only 24 horde players, and over a thousand alliance players :| not cool. but still, i’m enjoying myself and as long as i don’t try to pvp, i’ll be fine

my best friend’s boyfriend dumped him two days ago. it was an online relationship but still, darvin was proud to finally have someone he could call his own. so i’m pretty mad about that.

not much else to say. coy might be comming to get me today but i’m not sure. college keeps him busy

in site news. i’m working on some new junk, some pixels for adoption, and i’m revamping the qbee page i put up…because i don’t like it the way it is right now.