oh man.. still haven’t finished that layout *stab stab stab*

i’m sitting here listening to techno music i torrented earlier. -so good- i love it. makes me all peppy and stuff… anyway.

i have an early appointment with the foodstamp people (because i am poor and i need these things…) and i should have been in bed hours ago (appointment is at 9:45..) so i’m fucked. i can never sleep when i need to. staying up every night with lucas on second life doesn’t help stuff either but eh… i needz my lucas fix

my training for my xm radio tech support job starts monday. i get to sit around and learn xm radio junk from 4pm to midnight X_x for 4 weeks straight. i think i only get weekends off. at least it’s paid training so it won’t be just a waste of time. it’s mostly a fall back. lucas should be here before i even finish with the classes so i’ll just be leaving when he does *shrug* but if something happens and the dates get pushed back again, at least i’ll have something to make money with until i can get the hell out of here. lucas is proud of me for taking this job even though i am very skiddish with things of this nature (talking on the phone to people i don’t know sometimes makes me a bit freaked out) him being proud in me makes me feel good. i still hope he shows up soon rather than later.

i watched the gift earlier, very good movie, very fucked up movie. for some reason me and bobbie have a netflix queue full of fucked up movies lol.

not sure what else to blog. blah..

i feel somewhat awesome today! i had an early interview at the xm radio place which was ace, and i got the job with no problem what so ever. my training starts monday next week.

HOWEVER, next week is when lucas is to show up. and if he does, i’m probably not going to go to the job, because… i’ll be leaving for texas.

but hey, at least i proved i could land the god damn thing!

anyway, as time grows closer to meeting lucas i’m getting more and more nervous and fidgity and spazzing out when i think about it. it’s not a bad nervous, just sorta… giddy… and i want to jump up and down like a little kid.

ok back to second life.

yes i am writing… *shuffles feet* i have a half finished layout to go up later i guess, if i can peel myself away from lucas long enough to finish the coding.

i am officially (hopefully) one week away from meeting the love of my life in person. i am so excited i am afraid i may pee myself… ok just kidding. but i’m seriously very excited! i am so nervous… we know what eachother looks like but i’m just nervous anyway because i hate the way i look and blah. OK! no down on myself… i will make it!

anyway…

i’m not sure what to really type because nothing really happens and i don’t want to just gush on and on about my boyfriend because that can be really rude and i’m sure you people don’t want to read about that.

i guess i should go try to finish that layout before lucas gets back…

-33 dead in virginia tech shooting…

-lucas and i celebrated our anniversary of meeting each other in second life

today was the anniversary of the day i met lucas in a crater on second life. the day that changed everything. however, we spent a good majority of it watching the horrible shooting tragedy at virginia tech. i have friends at that school and i was pretty worried but thankfully they both left me messages to tell me they were ok.

after the bad stuff calmed down we ended up all mushy on msn, re-reading our first conversation (i’d saved the chat log) remembering how dorky we were when we first met… it was sweet.

the end of the month is getting close and i am getting so freaking excited! i hope it all goes well.

dunno what else to say. so… blah.

ok missed a few days with the posting but i figured i’d give an update.

a scanner darkly might just be the most fucked up wtf movie i’ve seen in a while. but man was it good! i really liked how they did the whole thing in this weird cartoon vector thing… anyway, must see it if you’ve not. nimil approves!

lucas is planning to see me at the end of the month! i am so excited. this is going to be the best time of my life ever. finally a man who wants to do nothing but love on me… i hope this one lasts for ever…

ok enough of me being mushy.

someone needs to tell the adult swim people that their lineup is starting to suck. saul of the molemen sucks ass, and so does that show by the tom goes to the mayor people. UGH. i can’t stand it :|

today it fucking snowed it’s ass off and bobbie and i stood around staring in disbelief. WHERE DID THE WARM GO?!?!

that’s about all i have to say… OH i rejoined despair so maybe i can keep up with it this time.

*edit*
fixed the comments so you can actually see the form now… stupid style sheet was hiding from me

i’ve been trying to keep up with this blog a bit more. notice my posts are more frequent now *nods*

i needz a new layout! i love my chemical romance to pieces and bits but i am a layout whore and well.. it’s time for a change! man… i used to put up a layout every month now i’m such a slacker :s i just can’t seem to get inspired. bleh… i’ll come up with something.

also i implemented a threaded comment script and it made my comments a wee bit ugly and i have yet to figure out what i’ve done wrong lol they work but they don’t match the layout very well *glares at it*

anyway last night was so fucking boring. spent most of the night waiting on lucas, falling asleep watching the sopranos and then finally around 4 am my time got to talk to him on the phone for a bit *heart eyes* he kept telling me about watching that sex talk show with sue johanson lol. that show is disturbing…

tomorrow we should have a scanner darkly from netflix. *does a little dance*

:| i hate goldfrapp but for some reason i’m hooked to this ooh la lalala song… bollocks.

anyway. yesterday was great. true romance is a bad ass movie and it made me all mushy on lucas. i hearts him dammit. HEARTS!!!

we also watched dawn of the dead and saved. both appropriate for easter since the first involved zombies (in honor of zombie jesus) and then saved involved retarded over-zealous christians whee (hi yes i’m an ass, you should know that by now)

anyway it’s easter, and i slept though most of it cause lucas and i stayed up on the phone until like.. 10am. he passed out on me *pouts*

got nothing to really write about. happy zombie jesus day for those who celebrate it.

ok it’s april, and it should not be 20 degrees outside. UGH. i woke up this morning and it was fucking snowing! WHAT THE HELL!?

anyway today was interesting. i woke up to bobbie shuffling things around, and she turned on the light and i sat up. she said “sorry to turn the light on, on you but chunky is missing.” chunky being the hampster…

during the night the cat jumped up on chunky’s cage and his weight disconnected the little plastic thingies that chunky plays in, so chunky was able to excape into the night lol. we searched the whole damn apartment and didn’t find him. hopefully he’ll show up sometime later on tonight.

and no the cat didn’t eat him cause ginger is too little. we’d notice if he’d eaten a hampster lol

after the frantic searching, bobbie called into work cause she just wanted to do some house work and be lazy we cleaned out the closets and fixed the one in the living room up so i could hang my clothing up and what not. bobbie has way too many shoes X_x. deep in the back of her closet i found the most awesome thing ever. a zebra stripped cowboy hat!

then we went out for japanese food! woot! i got teriyaki steak and fried rice with extra shrimp sauce. god… heaven there… i haven’t had any japanese food in almost a year! wish they’d had sushi though…

after japanese food, we went to bobbie’s mum’s house because she’d bought us easter presents. so i get there, and i have a cute egg shaped box full of CANDY! and socks O_o, and a teddy bear with bunny ears… awwww. i shall take photos later.

currently i’m on second life kissing lucas while he’s afk lol. tonight we’re going to have movie night on the phone and watch true romance and maybe another movie. i’m not sure.

i love weekends.

so bobbie’s house is quite cool. she has 2 birds, a hampster, and a kitten who we thought was a girl but ended up being a boy. i live in the living room but it’s ok. so far things are good. job prospect didnt’ work out unfortunately so i’m still looking for work. seems like anywhere i try to apply i get turned down and i can’t figure out why. bleh. not going to let it get me down. MUST KEEP TRYING!!!!!!!

lucas and i talk on the phone every night and watch movies together and all kinds of cute mushy stuff. it’s great… i just can’t wait until he’s next to me watching movies instead of on the phone.

haven’t done much for april fool’s day. just kinda joked around on second life. i made myself look like a guy and lucas tried to make himself look like me (and failed…) then i turned myself into a very tall blonde bimbo.

anyway enough blah blah blah about second life. i feel like actually doing something constructive with this site… so maybe a new layout later.