i need to figure out somethign to say that doesn’t involve hating work or hating my life in general.

i should be more positive i just can’t really figure out how to do that.

been mt. dew free for a few months now, not seeing any change in my weight and that’s probably because i still eat candy like a fucking fiend. blah.. guess that’s the next thing i need to quit.

i attempted to get back in touch with friends that i’ve lost touch with but that failed as the one i really cared about decided that i ditched her for my boyfriend which isn’t actually the case. i’ve just turned inward and it’s not a priority issue as much as it is a me issue.

i closed down my livejournal and figure if i need to write where someone can see it, it can be done here. and the other stuff, can be done in private, paper journal or something else, offline, out of the public eye. i’m not sure why i had one to begin with. it started as just another place to join, and i’ve had it since 2001 and i’m just sick of it i guess. feeling like i should be pushed to keep it up bleh.

i’m going to leave it active so i can look back on things later on, i’ll probably also make a backup of it, but i’m not going to write in it again. i quit all the groups i was in except for the ones that i created, again for personal reflection and because other people might want to use them. but i’m done with that place.

i’m probably going to create new messenger names at some point too but only give them out to a small group of people who AREN’T going to get butthurt if i don’t sign in every single day.

this website is going to get an overhaul including the removal of the long dead webcam lol. i haven’t updated that thing since i moved into the apartment in like.. march X_x. not like it matters much. it’s just my dorky face big woop.

my new year’s resolution is to try and reconnect and do more than focus on one thing though that sometimes tends to be impossible.

now back to work before i get in trouble