so out of the blue i’m going to have to move out of the trailer i live in with bobbie. she was planning to get a promotion and more money but they gave it to someone else. so she decided to move in with her aunt and i have no where to go but home. unfortuantely when i write my parents to ask about that they tell me that i will have no bedroom, only the couch to sleep on. they have a 3 bedroom trailer. they have room for me, i lived there for most of my life, but they won’t even bother to give me my room back while i am stuck with no place to go?! i’m not sure if i’m sounding selfish or not, but this seems rediculous to me.

i know i should be able to live on my own but right now with no job the only place i could afford to move to is an apartment building infested with drug addicts and i’m really not interested in doing that. instead i turn to my parents for help and they pretty much leave me high and dry. yeah it’s a place to stay but i’ll be staying there for more than a week because i have to wait and apply for jobs. it could be months before i can find a place to live on my own and i can’t do that on a couch.

i feel a bit betrayed and hurt. i never thought my parents would do something like this. it feels like they are turning their back on me.

the dog also decided to chew up my internet cable so i no longer have internet access on my main computer which means that i am unable to do most stuff because my laptop cannot run programs as well as the main computer can. i no longer have access to photoshop, or the good second life client so i cannot do any graphics work. i no longer have access to the network so i could not do my dj set today.

i’m glad that i could at least use my laptop but right now i really need to be able to get on the big computer.

everything just keeps falling down around me and i’m really losing the will to pick up and move on. i just feel like laying down and dying right now. i never seem to be able to make it anywhere…