i feel so disconnected lately. everything just seems to be passing me by.

my birthday was on the 24th and instead of excitedly blogging about it i let it go and didn’t say a word on here. bleh, maybe i really have just lost the blogging spirit i once had. i never talk about anything on here anymore except that i suck at blogging and never have anything to say. it’s a vicious cycle.

i feel disconnected to people. those i once payed attention to, and those i should pay attention to, it’s really starting to weigh on me.

so i turned 27 on the 24th and now it’s almost september. i’m still trying to find a job with no luck. the economy is shit and i have nothing else to talk about.

how was your day?

i suck as a blogger. hah. i don’t know what’s happened… i used to be so hooked on blogging and making websites and all that stuff… now a days i look at my blog and just go.. bleh…

so i figure it has to do with the fact that nothing is going on in my life, and i have always been a life blogger as opposed to a news blogger or a gossip blogger. i suppose that’s the pitfall when you blog about your life. if there’s nothing going on, then you really have nothing to blog about.

i do twitter and plurk often but that’s because it’s micro-blogging and i have so little to say it’s easier to spam those sites with small thoughts than to write a blog every time i have a tiny bit to say. perhaps i should round up all of those thoughts and actually write something every now and then.

recently my life has been pretty dull, as i’ve said before… there’s not much going on. i live with my parents and i’m still trying to find a job. i never realized how hard it would be to get a job down here. it’s really sad. i’m glad i have a roof over my head though.

i’ve found myself being very uninspired to do anything, and that’s something i need to get away from. i’m seeing some improvement in my weight finally, and that has encouraged me to get off my ass a bit more. i’m hoping once i do get a job i will be able to snap out of this lull and into being a person again. i don’t care much for being a lump but i just feel so unmotivated.

walmart is my main target of job interest. i’ve worked there before and i left on good terms so i hope that i can get a job there again. several people that i worked with last time still work there so that’s a plus they all liked me the first time around.

the crazy thing about the walmart deal though, my application would not go though! 3 times i showed up to the kiosk (i don’t trust the online web applications and have been told that they do not look at those) and tried to send in an application and 3 times i was thwarted, being told that i had previous data and needed my pin. i tried every pin combo i could think of and finally someone from HR showed up and fixed it for me. i’m not sure what happened but i think the computer merged my social security number with another person’s application because when i went to update mine it had someone else’s name on it! we got it all straight though and i hope they will be giving me a call back. this is about the time i started working there last time and it’s right when school starts so they should be needing people!

i have some second life junk to attend to now so off i go.