Arrr, hello e’eryone, its talk like a pirate day. i’ve ne’er had a chance t’ participate in this so me figured today me would make sure i got my pirate on, gar! so happy pirate day!

today nothing is cooperating and i’ve only been awake for an hour.

i had a hard time sleeping due to the wonderful nightmares i get almost every night. for a while they had stopped but they’ve returned now and in full force. i don’t remember what i dreamed but when i woke up my brain did its weird little glitch where it makes me think there’s shadow people in my room, and so i did what i always do, i freaked out and flailed around and then turned on a light. for some reason though, what ever i dreamed bothered me so much i could not go back to sleep until i turned my tv on to some stupid cartoon on cartoon network. then i was finally able to close my eyes and pass out again.

i woke up way later than i wanted to and now i’m struggling to do my daily goals

i hate nightmares!

i’ve been playing too much WoW lately. to the point where i’m just completely bored with it. don’t get me wrong, i love the game, i think it has an amazing back story and the gameplay is great, but i just get sick of playing it day in and day out. so i’m gonna cut back on it a bit.

i hate when i get burnt out on videogames, especially games i love. i’ll stop playing them for months at a time sometimes and then come back to them and forget where the heck i was and how to use the game in general. i’d love to be one of these people that can get so hooked on a game that they finish it in a week or a month even. i still have playstation 2 games i’ve been playing on and off for about 4 years now lol. i’m a horrible gamer!

so its been more or less half a month since i started this little blogging challenge for myself, and i’m pretty impressed that i’ve kept up with it. the hardest part about this writing everyday stuff, is finding things to write about.

i don’t want to bore people with my day to day life because really, its the same cycle every day… wake up, exercise for 10 minutes, eat, clean room, plop down on my bed with the laptop and write a blog, call lucas, and then we play WoW until i get sick of it, then i switch to second life until i get sick of that, various other games here and there, then sleep.

not very exciting is it?

i try not to abuse that mindbump site, though i guess i could just use it every day for different blogging prompts, but sometimes i feel like maybe that’s just not personal enough and well… this is a personal blog firstly.

anyway, i’m mostly rambling because i have spent an hour thinking up an idea to blog about, even asking lucas for help, and couldn’t come up with anything… so you guys get filler

i don’t have much to say today…

last night i found out that another amazing talent has left us. when will death leave the great people alone

i am glad that his suffering has ended.. but i am sad to see him leave us.

seriously having trouble coming up with anything to blog today. so here’s another mindbump.

suggested by Furniture Gothic

"Have you ever had a sublime, or nearly religious experience due to a visit to a unique work of architecture?"

this is an interesting question… and to the  surprise of many, the answer is… yes!

when i was in high school, my senior year, the drama crew went to new york city. the entire trip was amazing and i was in awe at so many things, but what really struck me hard was the trip to the empire state building. our group went at night, somewhere near midnight or maybe 1am, we piled into the elevators and made the long trip upwards into the observation deck at the top. once there i first felt the overwhelming desire to go the hell back down. because i have vertigo and i do not like high places.. but something kept me there, and i made my way out to the big overlook area. i gripped the supports of the fencing tightly and peered down, first being blinded by the lights that shine up at the top of the building, but then once shifting my gaze, i saw the city below and i felt this rush that i can never quite describe. i’d never been up that high in all my life.. yeah sure i’ve been on a roller coaster, and i’ve been in those observation towers at theme parks, but that was nothing compared to this.

i wish that my photos were scanned… or that i’d had a digital camera back then. the view was amazing. this was before 9/11 (like only a few months before) so the twin towers still stood. the night was perfect and you could see the lights and cars, everything was tiny but so beautiful. i could have stayed up there for the rest of the trip and been content.

while up there i ended up finding a payphone and calling my parents to tell them about this amazing thing i had just seen, but it was nearly 2am by then and they were not so happy to receive my call i talked so much and got so excited up there, that the cold air of april took my voice and i spent the remainder of the trip unable to speak.

but it was worth it.

i am so addicted to this game

scribblenauts is a friggin amazing game that was released this month and i think it might be one of the best and most addictive games ever created. one of the only games i’ve ever found that actually lets you use your imagination to its fullest!

you play a cute little dude named maxwell who is given tasks to help out people thoughout the levels. sometimes you just need to give them something they want, other times its a bit more complicated.

to fulfill your tasks, you use the “notepad” to type out words with your stylus. every word you type creates what ever that word is and it appears in the level. once created, it is useable by you or by the other characters there. you can even add people to help you on your way!

the levels can be beaten in a number of ways and when you do a stage over the game actually expects you to pick a different word to solve the puzzle each time. depending on how you finish a level you will get points called “Ollars” which will let you advance to the next level, or purchase new avatars if you get tired of max.

of course being that this is a kids game, you can’t use profanity, and because they don’t want law suits you can’t use copywritten terms. they give you the rules before you start so you don’t have to guess what you can and can’t use. the dictionary however is mindblowing. according to a website i read about the game before i got it, the full list of usable words is over 22,800 unique entries! that means your possibilities are endless!

the video that really sold me on this game was an e3 demo where they showed a player pit cthulhu against god! it was then that i knew i must have this game. and i am so glad its finally out. there is also an action mode that lets you do other stuff but i haven’t really touched that yet as i am still working on the puzzle levels. and i hear there is also a level creator mode but since i don’t really have anyone to share levels with, i probably won’t bother with that.

you know i really hate courtney love. i did back when kurt was still alive, and i do now.. but now i hate her for the simple fact that she is a loser, who has control of the legacy of one of the most remarkable men in music, and she is an idiot with it.

the new guitar hero 5 came out recently and apparently the digital likeness of kurt appears in it at some point along with a couple of songs you can play by nirvana. ok.. to me that’s eh… kinda not cool. but i’ve not see the avatar so i’m not sure what it looks like.. it seems that its causing quite a stir up with the guys from nirvana as well as courtney.

“Cobain’s widow, Courtney Love, had been lashing out on Twitter this week about her late husband’s inclusion in the game, calling it vile and claiming she would sue Activision, the game’s publisher. Love claimed she never approved Cobain’s digital likeness, and that she thought the grunge rocker would despise the rhythm game "let alone this avatar."”

yeah ok… so courtney is pissed about something, i’m amazed, really, she’s a money grubbing twat, and this sounds like something she was be glad about since she would get a cut of the money for its usage.

but i guess this is just another case of drunken, drugged out stupidity by miss love because oops…

“Activision said in a statement Thursday that they secured the necessary licensing rights from the Cobain estate in a written agreement signed by Love to use the singer’s likeness as a fully playable character in "Guitar Hero 5," which includes "Smells Like Teen Spirit" and "Lithium" among its 85 tracks that can be played with instrument-shaped controllers.”

oh hey look at that! YOU SIGNED THE GOD DAMN PAPERS YOU STUPID JUNKIE!

god i hate her.. LOATHE HER… ugh… sorry i needed to rant. i wish she would have shot herself instead of shooting kurt…

suggested by Spelling Search

"If tomorrow morning you woke up ten years older, what would be the first thing that you would do?"

well i think i would probably crawl back into bed and never see the light of day again. that would seriously be awful to wake up one morning and find out i am suddenly 38! not that the age is a bad age, no not at all.. but right now i’m at a very crap time in my life, living with my parents… and it would probably be pretty embarrassing. at least in my opinion i guess…

that was a pretty weird mindbump hah… i am having some troubles coming up with blog ideas so pardon the mind bumps, and check them out if you are interested! they are great prompts!

one of my really bad habits is having a wonky sleeping pattern. i’ll go for a week or so getting up at the buttcrack of dawn, then as the month progresses, it’ll slowly flip, and i’ll get up later and later in the day until i’m staying up all night into the next day and sleeping mid day only to wake up at somewhere around 3 or 4 am.

i get like this because i don’t have a set schedule due to not having a job, and it really drives me nuts. its hard to stop and its one of the habits i’m having trouble breaking. i need to keep a set sleeping schedule in order to maintain the rest of the routine i have going here.. especially the diet part. i have noticed that when i don’t sleep normal hours, i tend to binge eat because my body doesn’t really know what day it is and i tend to feel hungry more.

does anyone have any tips on how to work this out? its easy when i have a job because i can for some reason maintain the schedule perfectly, but when i have open time and no structure, it just goes nuts.