so lucas was gone for a couple of days and i was stuck having to entertain myself. i got on sl and ran around with some friends when all of a sudden i heard my dad yell for my mom. his defibrillator went off and woke him up in the middle of the night. not good. he’s been sick all week which made his birthday suck. i hate seeing him so miserable. anyway after the shock he sat down and mom put on clothes and was dressing him to take him to the hospital when he started to feel worse and so she called an ambulance instead because she was afraid he was going to end up getting shocked again and they can take better care of him than she can in her car.

i stayed up all night worrying by the phone and trying to take my mind off things by running around random places in sl. finally they returned home at 5am, with dad, but he’s really weak.

they have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow. i hope everything is ok.

this shit never gets any easier… this is the 3rd time its gone off in the last couple of months and its really starting to scare me. i don’t want to lose him.