i know its been mostly ad posts here lately and i’ve mentioned previously that my dad has been sick and in he hospital. well the worst has happened, and even though we knew it would happen at some point… none of us want it to be right now.

today my father has opted to die peacefully at home in his bed, instead of in the hospital. he was brought home just a few moments ago and is now resting in his room.

none of us are doing very well.. i’ve been avoiding it mostly, being on second life to numb the pain of real life, which while i know that’s not healthy.. its all i know to do.

goodbyes have been said… and although he is just down the hall i feel like i’ve lost him already. i don’t know how long this will last. he might go tonight.. he might last longer. he’s always been tough and its hard to see him like this. but even at the very end he is a fighter. its just unfortunately something no one can fight forever.

i just wanted people to know what is going on, incase i disappear for a while. i have no idea what will happen now or after he goes… its all very up in the air. my thanks to those who have sent well wishes or visited it means a lot to me and my family.