today was my father’s funeral. not a lot of people showed up but everything was just bad timing. with the bad weather and the time of year it was just impossible for most to make it. the masonic lodge that dad was a member of held a masonic funeral for him which was very interesting to me. i have always been interested in that part of my father’s life. i always said that if i’d been a boy i would be a mason. they played his song by vera lynn (till we meet again) but the man forgot there was a second song (who wants to live forever by queen) so i played it on his ipod as we drove to the gravesite.

the grave was an hour or so away from where the funeral was, but it took forever because of the holiday traffic. thankfully we got there safely with no accidents along the way. my dad’s best friend who i call “uncle wayne” was there with us and bought us dinner at some place called country cookin’.

everything seemed to go by so fast.. all of this seems like it just flew by… it felt so weird there. i have a hard time with seeing bodies and caskets and all of that stuff.. i hid in the back during the viewing and the funeral. a few people came up to me and said they were sorry but i didn’t really know what to say in the end. i didn’t cry until they played his song and i sang it to myself.

the final song, the title of this post,is the show must go on… a reminder for us to celebrate him, but to keep going forward as we all must do.