bleh sorry i’ve not been writing much lately and kinda shoving a ton of paid blog posts on here. times are tough and my father is once again in the hospital. the doctors are not hopeful this time though and everyone is upset. dad needs a heart transplant even though he is a bad candidate for surgery, and there is no real way we can afford such a thing. its pretty much that or he gets stuck on dialysis for a few months until everything completely fails.

yeah its harsh reality time and i’m not dealing with it well. right now i’m kinda absorbed in videogames and not talking to people.. i don’t really know how else to deal..