a month ago yesterday i woke up and was told that my father was dead. a month ago yesterday my entire life collapsed. a month ago yesterday i lost my best friend.

i’m still trying very hard to keep it together. all the stuff we’ve had to endure lately has been tiresome but we’re still here, and everything is ok as far as i know. i’m still crying a lot over it.. randomly.. .when i see movies i think he’d like, or when a show he enjoyed comes on. i’ve been reading his old books, and wandering though old photos.

mom gave me this photo to clean up in photoshop. i didn’t do a great job but it came out way better than what it originally looked like. the picture is blurry because it was taken by a shakey person, but it was covered in wrinkles cause it was in my mom’s purse for a while so i fixed them to the best of my ability.

this is the last photo of my parents together. taken not long before he got really sick. he started using the wheel chair after his legs got really weak and he couldn’t stand up for more than 5 minutes at a time.

i miss him every day. and i wish he was still here.