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following in the footsteps of some of my favourite bloggers, here is a blog about me and how my life has changed in the last decade. for sarah, the originator of this, it made her fear change. for me.. i hate change.. but its going to happen even if i don’t like it very much. everyone elses’ blogs seem to have a positive end, and sadly i can’t promise you that with mine… but i grew up a lot and that’s important. this is a little bit long o.o sorry about that!

the start of this decade was actually my beginning years on the internet! i didn’t actually have the net until 2001 right after i graduated. (ok we did have it back when i was 15 but we had to get rid of it for a long time.

2000

summer brought chaos, my dad had 4 heart attacks in the span of a week. we lost a lot of money and things looked really bleak. we were told my dad would only live a few months without a heart transplant, but that he was not a candidate for a transplant because of his condition.

fall brought my senior year of high school. i believe this is also when the crazy old dude in craig’s apartment tried to shoot us all. this is possibly the first time i have ever been afraid for my life. our friend john was shot in the arm and then taken to jail when the old guy made the cops thing we were harassing him (we were cooking dinner, he was drunk and had a gun.. wtf). i had to go to a lot of court dates and failed honours english because i was not in class enough to pass the tests. craig moved in with my family because my parents didn’t want me to go back to his apartment.

2001

half of my senior year over, the final half was a bit of a breeze. in april, got to go to new york city with the drama class! definitely a high point in my life.  got to see phantom of the opera and chicago, flipped off live mtv broadcast, irritated new yorkers, bought lots of stuff, had duck in china town, took a billion pictures.

in may i got to go to va beach for some sort of poster contest that i only entered because i knew i would win and i wanted to go to the beach lol. spent the entire time goofing off at the beach, disobeyed curfew rules, and got to see a live band!

june brought prom, which i went to in a hearse! best prom ever…

june also brought my graduation and the death of my grandfather. he died the same week i graduated, making it somewhat bittersweet.  august, i turned 20…september 11th happened and i was completely floored… just months ago i was in that city. i became very paranoid and swore off the news.

started poking around the internet, joined a game forum for fans of the playstation game series “wild arms”, joined live journal, joined half a dozen other sites, made my first blog on angelfire. became an internet troll and irritated people on yahoo chat!

got to see cradle of filth in concert, met and got photos taken with band members. almost died in mosh pit.  became an anime tard.

i had seriously good self esteem around this time in my life. computer exploded and my uncle gave me his old computer as an xmas present. it came with a webcam…

2002

went to a gay club for the first time in my life. kept making websites for dorky things. started going to a lot of local band concerts.  i became a cam-tard (not a cam whore, i never got naked but i would sit in yahoo chat with my cam on and people would beg me to show them my boobs and i would laugh at them.. yeah. i was lame)

my parents moved into my grandpa’s house which was owned by my uncle.

started having problems with insomnia and nightmares. started role playing on aim with friends from wild arms forum. started playing dungeons and dragons with craig and friends… created lenora, nimil, torch, and a few other characters. started writing defying destiny.

moved website from angel fire to sinfree.net. pissed off some people and lost friends.

took my brother to his first concert (korn and puddle of mudd) he got kicked in the face and i almost lost my glasses. great show

had some drama… craig and i fell apart. i made a man cry and i still regret it to this day. started dating coy, an old friend from high school. moved website to a friend’s hosting. started using grey matter instead of blogger. my first real leap into hacking up blogging code to make layouts.

moved in with coy, who was living with his grandparents at the time. started working as a drywall sander for his grandpa’s drywall company. i hated that job but it paid nice. probably ruined my lungs though.

around this time dad was very bad off. his medications were messing him up really bad. he threatened suicide a few times and other times he was bed ridden. everything was really messed up. mom had to quit her job to take care of him. the roller coaster from hell with the government benefits began.

2003

moved out of coy’s grandparent’s house after his grandma started packing up my stuff while i was at work. she kicked me out because i didn’t go to church, and suddenly decided she would not tolerate us living in sin. O_o; i moved into the basement of my parents home which was pretty awesome.. it was kinda like my own apartment.

i had a short lived time as a freelance gothic model. it was a lot of fun but there were not enough photographers in my area. got a digital camera and started taking pictures of myself and friends and anything else i could find. learned how to make photo manipulations. touched photoshop for the first time in my life and fell in love. coy bought me a domain (serial-kill.net) for a year and i moved all my stuff to that.

we got cable internet for the first time ever and i started spending every waking moment online.

got to play in a LARP (probably my nerdiest moment ever) and also started working at hacker house.

2004

my uncle became an asshole and decided to kick my parents and me out of the house we were renting from him. we all moved back to the trailer and my dad was heart broken that his brother would do something like that. (the house was a way better place for dad and closer to doctors) i got my first real job at walmart in the electronics department. and then later that year my second real job at gamestop. i regret leaving walmart.

we had dial up here and there during this time but for the most part we were without internet again and life was pretty boring. moved in with coy again, who was now living with his mom (i should have taken this crap as a hint…) had more drama, moved back in with parents.

dad’s pacemaker stops working properly, he gets really sick and they have to replace it.

2005

lost the internet and with it my domain, had no site for a while. used internet at friend’s house and ended up trolling the wrong chat room. had every account i had online stolen because i was a moron and used the same password for everything. never went to a chat room again.

blew up my old computer by putting hardware in it that shouldn’t have gone in it. bought beast at walmart.

coy started avoiding me to go hang out with his friends and play videogames. could not get him to get a job to save his life. started to wonder wtf i was doing with him and if this was going to be the way it always was.

2006

coy suddenly decided to go to college. he buys a swanky computer and gets dsl internet. i move in with him to be closer to him so he doesn’t have to drive an hour to see me (not that he was bothering to see me anyway) i discovered second life. got kinda addicted, made new friends, had some interesting adventures. taught coy’s mom how to use the internet. she got involved with a nigerian scam artist. we spent months getting her to stop talking to him.

i decided to start blogging again and started a blog here on surnaturelle.net!

coy flunks out of college because he can’t stop playing videogames at friends’ houses long enough to do class work.

dad’s pacemaker malfunctions again.

2007

i met lucas right at the beginning of the year! slowly realized i was on a downward spiral to nowhere. fell in love with lucas and left coy. life went INSANE for a while. had no internet, drove everyone crazy… moved in with bobbie and got a job at a call center! had tons of money and spent it on junk i probably didn’t need, and some things that came in handy. bought my first laptop (i’d wanted one for sooo long) got to go to warped tour. almost died of heat stroke. met bad religion!

2008

things not working out how i want them to, started to slip into some major depression. stopped taking care of myself. gained a lot of weight. got fired from job for a stupid reason. stopped being friends with bobbie for equally stupid reasons. moved back in with my parents.

at this point, dad was actually doing a lot better. remember how in 2001 they said he wouldn’t live very long? now he was up and moving around. he started going to masonic meetings again. we were not doing too well financially but we were ok.

my brother marries his long time girlfriend brittany.

2009

dad started getting sick again. i started trying to figure out new ways to make money since i couldn’t find a job in this dinky ass town. started learning about 3d programs and stuff like that. started writing advertisements into my blog and on twitter. in november mom had a stroke dad got really sick and was having trouble getting up out of his chair. in december he passed on. the worst christmas in the history of my family. i slide further into depression. my brother and brit move in to help me and mom with bills.

2010

well so far its not gone very well but given that it took months for me to come out of the dark hole i dug myself into after my dad’s death i think i’m doing ok. started losing weight! still unable to find employment but doing pretty well with the ad blogging. my computer blew up in june and i built legion earlier this month. that gave me a bit of self confidence that i haven’t felt in a while. still with lucas and still love him more every day for putting up with me. i’ll be 29 in august.