about how it snowed yesterday:

and because mom’s kindle arrived early

but its not happy because later that evening, we got the news that my grandfather (who i’ve always called pap pap since i was a baby) is in his final days. he lives in PA and there is really  no way for us to get up to see him before he goes. the doctors say there’s nothing else they can do (i hate that… i seriously hate that… that’s what they said about my dad too.) and so he’s been sent home with hospice. it hits me like a ton of bricks. its bad enough, my father died last year in december, right before giftmas, but now my grandfather, my mom’s dad, will die this year, in the same month.

i am so sick of death.