my uncle is supposed to be helping us pay for my mom’s auto repair, since he has a bit of money now. i really wish we could just get her a new car like a Toyota Camry or something, but she likes the big suv she has now so we’re trying to fix it.

it has something wrong with something underneath, i honestly cannot remember what its called. i don’t know much about cars, but its something that is dangerous and she can’t drive up the mountain because it might break? anyway its no good and i’m worried about her breaking down somewhere and not being able to get home. its also caused her to fail inspection which means she can’t drive anywhere that she needs to go for meds and doctors appointments (thankfully some friends have been taking her around but that’s not always reliable)

it will be our luck that the thing will get fixed and she’ll have it for 2 days and then we’ll see the check engine light. it seems like when we get one thing fixed another thing breaks. i guess that’s just the price you pay for buying used cars!

i woke up this morning, looked out the window and now… I’M BLIND! it snowed while i was asleep and everything is once more blinding bright white, which i was definitely not expecting… i am just about finished with my new blog layout. i keep changing my mind about how i want things to look, and i’m worried about the colour scheme. doh! i think its nice looking so far though. i just need to get though tweaking everything and upload it. i’ve never really edited a pre-made layout before so its really weird to me to try and figure everything out. i’ll probably make a new layout with my own code again later but i was just so sick of trying to get the damn thing to work and i am so sick of this layout so i gave in.

today is 1 11 11! did anyone else notice that? how has your january been so far? i’ve been doing really well at keeping up with the goals i set for myself and that makes me pretty happy! i’ve been doing my best to keep negativity away as well and so far that has worked i’m sure there will be some cloudy days but i think i am finally starting to get the hang of this being an adult thing that i should have probably been understanding years ago.

i don’t have much else to write about but i wanted to blog something so people wouldn’t think i’m just a paid advertising blog. there is a real person here guys! and i am looking into a plugin to help me get the ads out of my RSS feed, so please feel free to subscribe if you do like me. i know i’m not as prolific as some bloggers but i do love comments and feedback.

my mom is so idle now a days after she got sick, and i wish i could come up with some activities for her to do because she always seems unhappy with sitting around. i’ve taught her a few things on the computer and how to do different stuff on the net but i think she would prefer something more her taste.

my mom used to really love gardening and i remember when i was a kid she was always planting and weeding flowers and stuff outside around the large tree in our front yard and in a small garden on one edge of our property. she can’t do that sort of thing now, because she can’t bend down for a long time and even minor work seems to be stressful on her body. i’m thinking of getting her a couple of window box planters, so she can enjoy some flowers without having to go dig and be on the ground where she can’t get up easily.

i think it would also make our place look a bit nicer with flowers! its been years since i saw her plant anything. we still have tiger lillies that bloom around the tree every year but she used to have a lot of different flowers and they were really pretty. it would be awesome to have window boxes full of beautiful flowers on the two big windows on the front of our house.

window flower boxes don’t look that hard to install so i would probably be able to get them put up without much hassle, or if i can’t maybe our neighbor can help us out. they have some on their windows as well so they probably know how to install them!

i’m finally getting this layout situation under control. i broke down and dl’ed a layout called thematic and i’m customizing it to how i want it. truth be told.. its not easy, but its coming out nicer than my craptastic layout that i was working on previously.

its snowing right now but its not the kind of snow that i prefer. i love when we get huge flakes and it snows and snows and snows and everything turns white. right now, its tiny little flakes that melt when they touch the ground not cool! and it keeps stopping!

i guess i should busy myself with this layout instead of whining about the lack of snow..heh.

my brother and sister-in-law finally took the big jump and are right now on their way to ohio. they’ve been talking about it a while now but it looks like this time its for real. i’m glad that they are finally getting on their own, even if they are at the moment, moving in with friends. they have a chance to grow and get away from parents, and there are probably more job opportunities there than in this little dinky hole of a town.

of course part of me is jealous. i would love to leave this state behind. even leaving this town would be lovely. i hope someday i can find a job that will pay the bills so i can move out on my own as well and then maybe find somewhere far far away to live! but for now i’m just going to scape together what i can from paid blogging and tweets and keep putting in applications.

have you ever been to a karaoke party? you know, the ones with the karaoke machines? i know now a days everyone probably uses videogames like karaoke revolution or singstar but i remember when i was a teen, our high school had a karaoke party after prom one year, and let me tell you, that was the most hilarious thing i have ever seen. i remember my friend michelle and i sang “people are strange” and i suck at following the lyrics on the screen, so it was mostly her singing and me mumbling along.

its surprising just how popular karaoke has become. there are tons of karaoke music cds now and its even been on MTV! there’s even portable karaoke machines out there so you can have a party anywhere. i never really enjoyed the karaoke videogames myself, but that’s because they judge you based on your overall vocal tone and not really how you sing the songs. regular karaoke doesn’t judge you at all of course, so its more fun and laid back and you can have a blast laughing at each other and your mess ups.

i’d love to have a real karaoke party sometime. of course i don’t have a machine or the videogames but i could probably buy some karaoke songs online and just sing to them with my computer. not as much fun of course but it could work.

every year around new years i decide i’m going to blog every day and get myself super pumped up to do it. and then i stare at this damn blank page and wonder just what the hell it is i want to say.

i don’t have day to day stuff to talk about anymore, i don’t want to sit and whine about life and how it kinda sucks, i could sit and review video games but that’s not always that interesting to write about.

while my mom was gone for a week i decided to dive into learning how to cook a bit more. i got a little adventurous and some of the stuff i made kinda sucked. some of it however was pretty good! i am slowly getting used to cooking things and i have yet to burn anything thus far. that is a major achievement for me in my book.

so far on the resolution/goal front, i have been doing well. i’ve managed to keep up with my food and other stuff that i want to keep track of, need to force the exercise still but its cold and it makes me whiney and not want to leave the warm heated blanket.

i have a half started layout for this place. i dunno why i chose the colour scheme i chose but eh, its not so bad. anything is better than this mess i have on here right now >_<

it is officially 2011, a new year and hopefully one of change and better chances for everyone. last night i spent my new years eve in the usual ways and had a lot of fun. i saw minority report for the first time and i really had no idea it was that good >_> didn’t know it was written originally by an author i like as well! (phillip k dick). i slept wonderfully and now i am awake and laughing at everyone’s hangover tweets.

this year i hope to really focus on myself, my health, and de-stressing my every day life. i also hope to be more meticulous with my organization of things, like my bedroom… and this website for that matter! i plan to try and keep up with EVERYTHING i am subscribed to, feed readers, social websites, etc, every day, and hopefully get myself out of this cave of solitude i have built up around me for a while now.

i have a lot of work ahead of me, but i am hoping to keep optimistic about this year.

tonight my mom and i are having what should have been giftmas dinner. ham, baked mac and cheese, and other fixins. sounds like a perfect new years day meal to me! in this area a lot of people eat hog jowls (YUCK!) and black eyed peas for good luck. do you have any special new years day rituals?