so this is going to be a double entry because i totally forgot to write yesterday D: sorry!

first up, something i have to forgive someone for? ok that’s hard to write about without talking about private life stuff, i guess i would say, i have to forgive the people who treated me like shit when i was in school. bullies picked on me because i was poor, not a christian, my hair was frizzy, anything they could come up with. i dwelled on it for a long time and felt like everything was wrong with me. it was a very traumatic time in my life i would think. the parents who tried to have me expelled from school for the simple fact that i wore a trench coat (it was my only coat and it was fall or winter i cannot remember) shook me the hardest. the fact that they could judge me as a “violent” risk even though they had never met me, that hurt a lot. but i do forgive them, because they are uninformed and those people that bullied me were brought up by people who were just blinded by their personal beliefs. so i forgive them, or i should say, i forgave them a long time ago… and its a huge weight off of my shoulders. the treatment i received drives me to educate others about bullying and its lasting effects on someone, and how to stop bullying if its being done to you.

day 5’s topic is something i hope to do in my life. its hard to pick just one thing. i want to get married, be a mom, be a normal grown up with a house and know how to drive, have a stable job and all that good stuff. i want to travel… i’ve never been out of my own time zone. i want to see a shuttle launch, not on tv. of course i do have a bucket list on this site, which has a ton of stuff i hope to do in my life, so i could just point to any of those. i hope that someday i can just have a life… heh…

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14: A hero that has let you down.
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs.
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself