blizzard offered me another 7 days free of world of warcraft, so me being the bored little mmo addict i am, decided to sit though the long ass reinstalling process and play a bit of WoW.

WORST IDEA EVER!

ok not really, i mean its enjoyable but i am so lost! my last time on this character was a couple of years ago. the quests i was doing on her are no longer there, and of course cataclysm has changed up the entire world.

so i feel like a total noob T_T

i am definitely going to get back into wow once my financial situation is stable. i have missed this game so much! i just need to buy the new expansion pack and some game time and get back into it.

i was able to level up kilalya quite a bit in the 2 days i’ve been playing. started at level 53 and now she’s level 57! i even hopped though the dark portal which i’ve never had the chance to do before! (yes i’m late on everything…)

to end this blog post, here’s a picture of kilalya standing in front of the dark portal like a goofy tourist.

i haven’t written much.. man i have been saying that a lot… but meh. i haven’t written much and the reason is that i have been exhausted. we’ve gotten a lot done in a week’s time but everything is still up in the air. my brother just finally started a new job today, my sister-in-law had an interview over the phone, i still haven’t been able to find a job even though i’ve put in a ton of applications all over the place. i’m worried that we won’t be able to pay the power bill. i don’t mind losing the internet at this point because we must do what we have to do, but we need electricity, so that bill looming over head is worrying me. not to mention mom’s funeral costs, which we’ll be paying forever at this point.

i’m asking again if you can donate, please click on the paypal button on my sidebar. don’t feel obligated, but any little bit will help. we have a lot of bills to pay, and we cannot afford them at this present time. if i have the internet, i will honor the advertisement bonus that comes with 50$ or 100$ donations, just please email me and let me know your information.

i hate begging, and i feel like i’m groveling at this point. but things are dire even though i’ve pretended they are not.

trying to get back into the swing of things after all that has happened in the past week is hard. for the first time in my life i am without the advice of parents. sure i have my little brother and my sister in law here living with me, so i’m not technically on my own, but i feel that way to a point.

its time to grow up. not completely of course because i like being a dorky young at heart person sometimes, but yeah… its time to take charge of my life and live a bit. a friend of mine had just mentioned a couple weeks ago, that her life didn’t really start until she hit 30 and then things all changed around, for the better. while mom’s death obviously isn’t a change for the better, it is a kick in the behind… i will be 30 in august. here’s hoping that things will get better soon.

today i am going to go out looking for a job in the local city area. its about a half hour away from home but there’s a better chance of work than this stupid place we live in. hopefully it’ll work out for the best.

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yesterday i brought mom to the hospital. today she is dead. i am still trying to understand what has happened and cycle though so many emotions all at once. so much destroyed in such a small window of time… the fragility of life just frightens me to no end at this point.

we were called by a group of people who asked for us to donate some of mom’s bones and skin, which we agreed to, because we felt she would have wanted to help others. her organs were not suitable for donation, but she will be able to help people with cancer, and burn victims.

everything is so very weird right now, and its hard for me to put this into words.

today or i guess now, yesterday, was a seriously weird day.

for those that didn’t read my twitter or facebook messages. my mother was admitted to the hospital with severe hemorrhaging to the brain. she fell off of her bed onto the floor and when i found her she was unresponsive. i had no idea she was even home… i called an ambulance and it took ever ounce of courage i had to go to the hospital with her. those who know me know that i cannot stand to be in a hospital. they tweek me out really bad.

i spent most of the day in panic and shock and it did not help that the doctor attending to her came in to tell me her hemorrhaging was fatal and that i need to find out what her wishes were. i have no idea what they were doing with her. they transferred her to a bigger hospital, and i had them take me home to wait on my brother to get here.

and then, while sitting here feeling the weirdness that always comes from this sort of stuff, an announcement was made, the president gets on tv and tells everyone that osama bin laden is dead. a murder of thousands has finally been brought to justice. and i feel good but not good at the same time.

its been a roller coaster today and i have no clue what i am feeling right now.