so when i last wrote, i was waiting on a phone call from *big retail store*. well that phone call has still not come but i am crossing fingers and hoping that it will soon. the situation here is not good money-wise and our home is literally falling to pieces. we cannot fix anything, or really clean anything, because we cannot buy anything to do so. our vacuum does not work, we don’t have money for garbage bags or cleaning products… its just getting ridiculous. i am at my wits end trying to figure out what the hell to do.

i’m really not sure how much longer we will have the internet. my brother is doing temp work at factories and he isn’t getting much work from that. my sis in law is a waitress so she doesn’t make that much money. my only job at the moment is writing paid blogs and tweets, and those who do that know that’s not very stable either… and if the internet goes poof, then there goes my only way to make cash.

i’ve had this donate button on the sidebar since may… not one person has graced it with even a dollar. i know, i shouldn’t expect much, because i am not “known” to people, but i kinda feel like crap about that. i wish i could find people here in the real world, off of the internet, who could help us fix our home, give us a vacuum or something that would assist us in not living in the mess we are in now. the lady next door told us months ago that she would speak to someone who could arrange a benefit for us to raise money for stuff, but here it is almost september and she has said nothing about it.

i want a job… i am so sick of waiting on these phone calls and the rejection… it should not be this hard to find a job.