i have been quiet lately, and the reason for this is of course because i haven’t had much to say but also because i just can’t seem to focus. lately it seems like my brain is all over the place! i have been having a hard time with depression since the death of my cat, and on top of that i just can’t seem to get anything done. i work on something and 15 minutes later i’m doing something completely different. its nerve wracking.

i’ve found that since i stopped having a very strict schedule with my life (being a kid, having school, set bed times, ect) i have really lost the ability to focus on projects and complete them in a normal time frame. i guess i am one of those people who work best with the pressure of deadlines. this is the most frustrating part of my adulthood. not having anyone to tell me what to do and when. that sounds ridiculous but there you go… i need someone to tell me what to do

i’m going to attempt to set up something on my computer that shouts at me to do things on a regular basis and keep up with projects that i start. i have so much half finished junk that i should be working on instead of goofing off!