so out of the blue i’m going to have to move out of the trailer i live in with bobbie. she was planning to get a promotion and more money but they gave it to someone else. so she decided to move in with her aunt and i have no where to go but home. unfortuantely when i write my parents to ask about that they tell me that i will have no bedroom, only the couch to sleep on. they have a 3 bedroom trailer. they have room for me, i lived there for most of my life, but they won’t even bother to give me my room back while i am stuck with no place to go?! i’m not sure if i’m sounding selfish or not, but this seems rediculous to me.

i know i should be able to live on my own but right now with no job the only place i could afford to move to is an apartment building infested with drug addicts and i’m really not interested in doing that. instead i turn to my parents for help and they pretty much leave me high and dry. yeah it’s a place to stay but i’ll be staying there for more than a week because i have to wait and apply for jobs. it could be months before i can find a place to live on my own and i can’t do that on a couch.

i feel a bit betrayed and hurt. i never thought my parents would do something like this. it feels like they are turning their back on me.

the dog also decided to chew up my internet cable so i no longer have internet access on my main computer which means that i am unable to do most stuff because my laptop cannot run programs as well as the main computer can. i no longer have access to photoshop, or the good second life client so i cannot do any graphics work. i no longer have access to the network so i could not do my dj set today.

i’m glad that i could at least use my laptop but right now i really need to be able to get on the big computer.

everything just keeps falling down around me and i’m really losing the will to pick up and move on. i just feel like laying down and dying right now. i never seem to be able to make it anywhere…

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yes… that’s right.. they are touring! roomie got the email tonight that they are announcing tourdates… and if they come to this area. I AM GOING TO SEE THEM!!!

my childhood was filled with the unhealthy obsession over this band. i had the dolls, the sheets, the curtains, the posters, the cassette tapes, the vhs tapes, if their face was on it, i had it.

however… i was never allowed to go to the concert when they came to town! i was “too young” according to my parents, and they didn’t want to take me so my childhood of course, was ruined.

but that is all ok because they are back! and they are touring! and my roomie and i are gonna go see them!

Commenters: Angelica.

i cannot figure out this stupid blog roll coding!!!!! the depreciated the code i use to seperate my links into categories on my links page and now it won’t seperate. and if i use the new code that they replaced my code with, it doesn’t show up! *bashes head into laptop* this is driving me nuts!

i’m really bored and my sleep schedual is all out of whack. bobbie is at her mum’s recovering from her minor surgery. she should be home today i think, if not tomorrow. and that would be great cause i’m all out of food and need to hit the store.

i’ve been playing the sims 2 again. i’d stopped playing it because my main computer is so slow even with all the ram and graphics card… but i installed it on my laptop and BAM it’s working beautifully. i got the whole set of expansion packs except for free time and the stuff packs. i’ll be getting those soon. and of course i have my fuck ton of downloaded content whee… now i just need to remember that the sims 2 camera controls are not the same as second life’s controls and i’ll be fine…lol

if anyone would like to help me figure out my links page hell please send me a comment.

FINALLY got some help on the links page situation, they are now all nicely seperated again, and the sidebar random links are back as well

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*gasp* i actually got out of the house today. yes! be proud!

i went with my parents to a local greek/itallian restaurant near by. dad had a doctor’s appointment so they were in town and so we went to eat. when they arrived they scared the dog and she peed on the chair O_O; that sucked but after that i penned her up and we got the hell out of there in search of food.

the place we went is one of my all time favourite restaurants in town. i had a cheese steak calzone and my parents both had steak and cheese subs.

ok so that wasn’t very exciting, but it was outside, and that’s what counts.

my roomie has an abscess on her BUTT! is that not just the most insane thing you’ve ever heard? last year she fell down the steps at the apartment we lived at (which in turn prompted us to get this trailer that we are in now). when she fell she ended up with a huge bruise and a knot that was really small so she never really payed attention to it. well a couple of days ago that small knot became the size of a baseball! and she had to go to the hospital. apparently the knot was an abscess then but since she never went to have it looked at, it got bad and now it’s going to have to be removed… *shudder* meanwhile she’s sitting on a doughnut.

also recently i found out that an old friend of mine who stopped speaking to me when the crap with my ex happened, has shot himself. he’s alive but will probably be messed up for the rest of his life. his girlfriend dumped him and he shot himself in the stomach. i’m not sure if he really wanted to kill himself or if he just wanted to make her feel bad… i hope that he gets the help he needs and gets the hell away from her because she always hurts him.

i’m going to see him when i get the chance. bobbie saw him when she went in to get the abscess looked at, and she said he asked for me. i just have to get the guts up to go see him because i hate hospitals, and i’m kind of angry at him for doing this to himself. he’s much stronger than this.

anyway, that’s all.

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i had jess update wordpress a few days ago and now i’m going in to clean up where it changed things. guh. i’m having severe issues with the links page but otherwise i think i got everything else taken care of. had to remove a couple of plugins but they weren’t completely important.

we have adopted a dog, named chong, from bobbie’s old boss, cause they moved and couldn’t take her along. so yay new dog. she’s cute and stuff but she’s a little terror and hell bent on destroying my world i do believe.

i really don’t have anything to write

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ok i think i have it all figured out now… >_>

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my friends, i’ve a new addiction… audio surf! this game is so much fun i can’t stop playing it! i recorded myself playing say yes by elliott smith, a slower song (i suck on the fast ones lol) great game.

tonight i’m watching blood for dracula which is a 70’s andy warhol film about dracula driving around the italian country side looking for virgins to feed on lol. i love andy’s films, not may people care for them though. they have poor acting but god i love them. they are campy and great.

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here’s a chance to win a soy candle with scent of your choice!

i’d love to have one of these! apparently soy candles burn alot better and the scent is a lot stronger than conventional wax candles. even if i don’t win i’m going to look into these because my roomie and i are candle freaks.

what else is going on in life? i’m still unemployed arg… going though some tough crap with the seasons changing also so right now is kinda shit for me. however i’ve been doing a lot of work in Second Life ™ both on my blog for that as well as the stuff i make in the game. so yeah.. maybe that creativity jolt will help me get though the month.

anyway, i’m off to grab dinner and be lazy.

Commenters: Jess~Kitty.

have you ever seen 2000 maniacs? its a great film, really fucked up and old. splatter gore about some kids who show up in a redneck town and end up slaughtered. amazingly enough MY MOM of all people recommended that movie to me a few years ago.

tonight i’m watching the remake 2001 maniacs, which has robert englund in it. of course it’s updated for modern audience, more gore and of course more sex… but still omg good. hilarious too… i love these cheesey horror movies where the entire idea is to kill annoying teenagers. also, robert englund is a horror god. so i’ll watch just about anything he makes.

people say i’m so rare. it’s not everyday you find a girl who would rather watch a splatter gore movie than watch a silly romantic comedy or something.

Commenters: Angelica.

spike is running a marathon of csi las vegas which is my favourite of the csi shows. i am so geek for this show. i’ll watch it for hours on end and it never gets old! even when i’ve seen the episode a million times! i was always really into forensic science, so that’s probably why i love it so much.

i have no idea why i’m really writing. mostly just trying to put something in here. i’ve been spending my time being quiet watching alot of tv, talking to my boy, and erm… sleeping alot. this is not a good habit!!! i need to get back on track and soon.

as soon as bobbie’s girlfriend is done visiting she’s going to take me to look into unemployment and foodstamps and also get my application in at walmart. yes i know, erg… walmart.. but really, it was never that bad of a job, and its something i know i can do because i’ve done it in the past.

i’ve been trying to finish up the books i borrowed while i was still working. a zombie book called dying to live and the second book in the twilight saga: new moon both are really good and i highly recommend them. especially the twilight saga… vampire love story… yum.

ok back to csi marathon…

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